At this very moment

At this very moment I hate our dog.  I really do.  I have got to write it down to release some of my stress so Grant does not have to get an earful and feel the need to apologize.  At this point I derive very little pleasure from her.  I try to remind myself she is a puppy and I need to be patient, but she has about zapped all my patience from me.  The horrible side effect of that is now I am way less patient with my kids, and they do not deserve that.  I have enough stress in my life without her sending me over the edge....oh and believe me she does.  Next time I think I want a dog and miss having one around, I need to remember how horrible this has been and really come to terms with the fact that I am just not a pet person...it really is not in me.