Sunday, December 28, 2008
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Jamison: I never want to forget how cute it is when she asks me very sincerely and so sweet, "So mamma, what did you do today while I was at school?" It makes me feel like we have a friendship and just like I want to know what she did at school, she want to know what I did at home. She is my sweet little peanut!
Caleb: Yesterday I was reading him his Christmas card from his teacher and at the end of it she wrote: Love Ms Michelle. He immediately said, "I do love Ms Michelle." This kid is such a lover and so sincere. He is a tender soul and I love that about him.
Asher: Even when he is trouble he says, "I need you Mamma." It melts my heart. He was supposed to be taking a nap today and I had to go in and put him back in bed. He said, "I want you to seep with me Mamma." So I laid in bed with him and wrapped my body around his chubby little one. It did not take long for him to give up. The sound of his voice saying, "I lub you mamma" melts my heart.
Miquelyn: She is a busy little body and never stops moving. When she is not happy or does not want to go to sleep she stiffens right up. Today I wrapped her in a blanket and decided to lay down with her to get her to sleep even though I had a million things to do. She was not looking to tired, but seconds after we laid down she relaxed and not long after dosed off. I am so glad I stepped away from my chaos, shut off my mind and just enjoyed the feeling of my baby snuggled up close and kissing her sweet head. Those are feelings I never want to forget.
It is impossible to write how much I love these little Munchkins, but I hope they always feel it and know it!
8 tv shows I enjoy watching:
1. THE OFFICE (my all time favorite!)
2. The Mentalist
3. CSI New York
5. Survivor Man
6. Whale Wars
7. America's Next Top Model
8. Project Runway
8 things that happened yesterday :
1. I made Caramel corn (and ate a lot of it too)
2. For FHE we delivered goodies to friends
3. I went to Walmart in my pjs
4. I forgot treats for Caleb's school party, but managed to round them up
5. I read a letter from Johnathon..happy day!
6. I got all the beds made
7. I changed innumerable diapers
8. I kissed my husband as much as I could
8 things I am looking forward to:
1. Christmas time meals...mmmm cannot wait
2. Watching my family open their presents
3. A day to sleep in (wishful thinking I know)
4. Christmas break and having Jamison home with us again for a couple weeks
5. The half marathon, mostly running it with Grant
6. The body I will have when I lose the weight
7. Talking to JD on the phone
8. Being together as a family for a whole day without any pressing business
8 things I love about winter:
1. Fires in the fireplace
2. hot chocolate
4. a change in wardrobe
5. snuggling up under blankets
6. The peace outside when it has snowed
8. Summer is just around the bend!
8 things on my wish list:
1. That my kids will all outlive me
2. That Grant and I will grow old together
3. That I will feel like I find my mind and sanity
4. That my kids will always know how much I love them
5. That my kids will always feel comfortable talking to me
6. That the economy would balance out
7. That I could make my Heavenly Father proud
8. That people around me would know how insanely happy I am!
8 people I tag:
Have fun and I will await your responses!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
James: So Mom, what did you do today while I was at school?
Me: Well I picked up the house and talked to a lot of people on the phone.
James: Who did you talk to?
Me: I talked to aunt Amy for awhile.
James: Okay what did she say? And who else?
Me: I also talked to aunt Kimberly.
James: Did you talk to anyone else?
Me: I talked to aunt Chanel today too.
James: Oh, what else did you do?
I could not help but chuckle at how grown up she sounded. It really hit me hard that she has been paying attention to how I talk to her and was emulating that. A gentle reminder that I am teaching my kids by example (whether good or bad) and need to keep myself in check so the conversations we have are ones of which I can be proud. And by the way, James...slow down, you do not need to grow up so fast!
Friday, November 14, 2008
1. I could do six kids. I took them all to the mall one day and I managed. I got many a strange looks and even had one man brave enough to ask if they were all mine. I could do it...but I still only picture our family with five...sorry Sue.
2. It is amazing how quickly six kids can make a huge mess...but it is no big deal when they clean it up themselves.
3. With that many kids little entertainment is requested from me.
4. Jamison and lack of sleep=getting in major trouble at school.
5. Noah can live perfectly fine without his DS.
6. At age nine, family is still preferred over friends.
7. The food is always better somewhere else.
8. Favorite moments are found in unexpected laughs (like a spider that Noah though he killed, but started crawling towards him. I hadn't laughed that hard with Har and Noah ever!)
9. How much we need family! It was great to be able to do something for Chels after she has done so much for me! It was great to have Perry and Christi there to help as well. There is no way we could do as much as we can without family, and those moments and memories are everything!
So I guess back to normal now, with a new knowledge, appreciation and understanding!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Me: Asher did I get you from the funny farm?
Asher : Nooooo
Caleb: Mom what farm did you get me from?
Me: I got you from the sporty farm.
Caleb: Oh Yeah...I like that.
Jamison: Mom what farm did you get me from?
Me: I think Igot you from the pretty farm.
Jamison: No, you got me from the princess farm.
Without their funny little inflections, it does not do it justice, but I got a kick out of it. So from what farm do you come?
Friday, November 7, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Go Packers! Their biggest little fan.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
1. I love to clean out my ears. I love the feeling of the q-tip in my ear just after getting out of the shower. I cannot explain it, but I love it. The funny thing is I do not love it when Grant kisses my ear. It is just best if he stays away. I cannot explain that one either.
2. I cannot start a project and not finish it. I can actually get slightly obsessive about it. The problem is that I can also get impatient, which often leads to not doing as good of a job as I should or could.
3. I enjoy doing our family finances. I kinda have a thing for numbers. This leads into wanting to go back to school for a business degree. (Poor Grant I am sure he is rolls his eyes just at the thought of it.) It will be many years before I get to do that, but it is something I want to do. So why did I do Social Work? Your guess is as good as mine. I suppose I love feeling like I am contributing to helping others have good lives since I have been blessed with an amazing one. Mostly I think I needed to do it to help me be a better mother and wife.
4. I like taking pictures of my kids husband and scenery, but I hate being on the other side of the camera. It is not often that there is a picture of just me for two reasons. The first is I feel goofy posing and waiting for the flash and am always worried I will have a cheesy fake smile. Second, when I look at a picture of myself I always find the things that I think do not look good...and this girl does not need that drama. I will occasionally appease Caleb and allow him to take a picture of me. The following is some of his work.
5. I have a fear of dying in a car accident. I suppose you might not know it by the amount of driving I do by myself and the distances that I travel, but that is one way I just do not want to go. I am not even sure why it bothers me, but I am sure that is a fear of mine.
6. I am very particular about the way in which the toilet paper roll is put on the holder. I always have to have the toilet paper coming over and off of the top, not under and from the bottom. (I am not sure if this is making sense.) I try really hard not to change the tp at other people's house when I use their bathroom, but it does occasionally happen.
There now that you know more about me than you wanted too, I want to know too much about Britney, Ashley, Chelsey, Chanel, Janae, and Christi. Have at it ladies!
Friday, October 24, 2008
I have been feeling slightly guilty lately that I am not at the school at all helping Jamison and doing things with her and her class. I try to keep tabs through Chelsey and Britney, but I am not physically there. I was telling Chelsey I wish I could be more involved, but it is a choice that Grant and I have made to have so many little kids so close in age. She responded that they would rather have their siblings than me at the school. It got me thinking about my own siblings. There was a time when the though crossed my mind that if it had been just Chanel and I how much more we would have, but there is no way I would trade the brothers and sisters for anything. If you would have told me 10 years ago (give or take 6 years) that I would be as close to all my brothers and sisters as I am, and how much I would love them and their friendship, I probably would not have believed it.) I love that I can count on good advice, help with kids, a reason to laugh, good conversation, an excuse to get out of town, a game night, a listening ear etc. My brothers and sisters mean so much to me, and I would not trade them for my mom helping at the school. Thanks Chels for keeping me straight. You know what else is great...that through marriage I have gained even more siblings. I really feel like my in-laws are real brothers and especially sisters. I am so lucky and blessed! So in short, I hope that our kids, someday, will be glad that mom had their brothers and sisters even if it meant she could not be at school as much as other moms.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
On Tuesday we had James's appointment and fantastic news, she does not have glaucoma! Wahoo!!! She does not need to go back on eye drops, another bonus. We will see that Dr again in a year and her other on six months. She is doing so great and we are so excited for the recent news. We played with Justin and Ashley for a bit and then headed back home. No more laundry found its way to being clean that day.
On Wednesday I got Jamison up and off to school and then at 9:30 met friends to take the kids to the Pumpkin Patch. There we played in a corn playground, did a corn maze, picked pumpkins, learned about the different kinds of pumpkins and squash, took a hay ride and the boys ate lunch. I made it back in town in time to pick up James from school. I went home for an hour to get Grant and I lunch, and then off again to take the kids to a Primary program practice. I was going to drop the kids off and go run errands, but when I got there I decided to stay and help with the practice. After that it was off to Walmart to get James's new glasses ordered and do a little shopping. I got home at 6:00 just in time to make a frozen skillet meal and then get the kids shipped off the bed. Once again laundry was not done and beds were not made (which almost never happens in this house, it is kind of a sanity thing for me.)
Thursday I finally got around to finishing the laundry (four days in the making), but still did not get around to the ironing. Friday I did a major house cleaning and then took a needed break and went to Chelsey's house to scrapbook. I did not get much done, but I just love being with Chels and Christi and hanging out.
Saturday we had a full day. The whole family (except Mique of course) cleaned out the garden and cleaned up the yard...it looks great. Grant winterized and then he went running. When he got back I went running. After showers and lunch the boys went to the golf course to putt and the girls went shopping to try and find me some cheap pants to hold me over until I lose the extra baby weight. We all met up at Sams and did a major grocery/food storage shop.) After that it was off to Safeway for more groceries and Petco for dog food. I think Grant got a taste of why I hate grocery shopping so much with four kids...maybe he will be even more appreciative of the fact that I do it all the time by myself. Productive but exhausting day.
On Wednesday I was feeling a little down because I felt like I got nothing done around the house. I did not even cook a real meal. I kept telling myself that someday my kids will not remember the house being clean that day or doing the laundry, but they will remember that Mom took them to do something fun, and stayed to help them at church. I hope they will know that I do things for them so they can be happy. Even though I did not get the things done I normally do, I accomplished the important things!
Saturday was a great family day. I love it when we work together as a family. Thank goodness the kids still think it is fun. I know it will not last, but girl can hope and wish! Hopefully we are not only having fun, but teaching the kids the importance of work. Looking back on my week, it was a week, a really good week!
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Shortly after that I look up to my dad on the stand and he mouths something to me. It took a second to register, but he was telling me to come do it in Dutch. I did not hesitate to shake my head and tell him NO WAY! I am not that great about bearing my testimony anyway, let alone in another language. Though, it did not take long for my wheels to start turning.
I had not shared my testimony in over nine years in Dutch. I knew it would not come out smooth, and what if I struggled for words? I have only kind of spoken Dutch out loud three times in the last 9 1/2 years. Then I think if those boys had the courage to do it in a language they really do not know, why should I not have the courage to it in a language that I do know, though a bit rusty.
Then I think about how someone mentioned they knew their mother's testimony because they heard her bear it often. I want my kids to know I have a testimony, yet I do not bear it often. I do not want them to be scared to go up if they feel the prompting. If that is the case, then I need to be an example, as much as I might not like it.
Then I thought, what is the point of sharing in Dutch, no one will understand. There really was no purpose. That though was quickly shattered. I realized there are some things of which I wanted to bear testimony, but they are so personal I would not actually do it in sacrament meeting. This was a great opportunity for me to say some tings out loud that I want my Heavenly Father to hear. It was a way for me to say those things out loud without feeling uncomfortable due to the personal nature.
Okay, so all my reasons were washed away and I knew it was something I should do. I needed time to formulate in my head and make sure I felt comfortable with most of the words I wanted to use. I waited until the last, but I made myself get up and do it. I am not sure what it is about getting up there, but I forgot to say several things I intended. I am very confident that my thoughts and intention were know by Heavenly Father and he understands what I wanted to say to Him.
I have always loved the following quote by Boyd K Packer, and feel its power even more today:
"Oh if I could teach you this one principle. A testimony is to be found in the bearing of it! Somewhere in your quest for spiritual knowledge, there is that 'leap of faith,' as the philosophers call it. It is the moment when you have gone to the edge of the light and stepped into the darkness to discover that the way is lighted ahead just a footstep or two. "The spirit of man,' as the scripture says, indeed 'is the candle of the Lord." It is one thing to receive a witness from what you have read or what another has said; and it is a necessary beginning. It is quite another to have the Spirit confirm to you in your bosom that what you have testified is true. Can you not see that it will be supplied as you share it? As you give that which you have, there is a replacement, with increase!"
It was something I needed to do, and of course something that strengthened me. I originally thought there was no point, but I was quickly reminded that there always is a reason, and yesterday the reason for for my own benefit!
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Grocery shopping: Yesterday I went on my first full on grocery shop with all four kids by myself. I knew it was inevitable, but I was still dreading it. I have always hated grocery shopping, but now it is much worse with all the kids. By the end of it all I was a little frazzled and very impatient. I HATE GROCERY SHOPPING! But, I love having fridge full of food, snacks for the kids, and most importantly ice cream in the freezer.
Cooking: I have never been a real fan of cooking. It is not so fun at the end of the day when I am rushed to get it all done with four kids yelling at me for different reasons. It is a fine balance with the baby making sure she is not going to be hungry right in the middle of it. Asher usually is hungry and screaming at me by then...last night it was for marshmallows (which he did not get.) Jamison and Caleb are fighting over what they want to watch (tv is necesarry for my sanity at this point.) So what do I love about cooking? There are two things. The first is making a meal that pleases my husband. I love it when he enjoys the food I have prepared. The second is cooking with my husband. We are trying to have a date night at home where we put the kids to bed early and he and I prepare a meal together which we have planned together. It is really nice to work side by side and then enjoy the fruits of our labors. Last night we enjoyed baked shrimp that was dipped in olive oil, lemon juice, salt and pepper and then coated in a breadcrumb, garlic, parmesan mixture. Next was Marsala chicken with angel hair pasta and sauteeted carrots, squash, zuchinni and onion. Oh so yummy! Our dessert fell through, so we just had Ben and Jerrys. It is a good time for us.
Cleaning the Bathroom: This is one of my least foavorite things about being a housewife. Cleaning the bathroom sometimes grosses me out...what with having a two year old boy that often gets distracted while going to the bathroom and all. I am also not a huge fan of hair in the tub, and with a little girl that is inevitable! What then do I love. I love walking into a bathroom that looks and smells clean. That is very satisfying.
Running: Today I went on my first run since Miquelyn was born...well actually my first run in just over four months. I was a little nervous that I was going to die even though I was only going two miles. What did I hate...well when I started the run I felt my back end bouncing all over the place. I hate having that reminder of how out of shape I am and how far I have to go. I loved that I felt awesome on my run and could have easily gone another mile or two. I loved that I was out hitting the pavement again...I have missed it! I loved that my legs did not really hurt much at all. I love my time to myself when I run. But most of all I loved that when I ran up to the house I had a three year old boy greeting me with a cup of water, a daughter that could describe to her father exactly what I was wearing down to the ponytail and stripes on the shorts, and most of all a supportive husband there to ask how it was and look at me with pride as I told him how good it felt. Man I have a good life!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Music expresses feeling and thought, without language; it was below and before speech, and it is above and beyond all words. ~Robert G. Ingersoll
This is a form of expression that is much appreciated in this family!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
On a different not I want to write just a little snippet about each kids that either cracks me up or amazes me. Despite bad days, I do have wonderful/amazing kids (and I know I am biased.)
- Jamison: She is the most forgiving child. She can be is such big trouble, like yesterday, and within minutes she is holding tight onto our necks giving us hugs and telling us that she loves us. She is such a smart kid, she just does things on her own terms, she often does not let people know how smart she is. She can be strictly obedient. Yesterday she was told that she could not have dessert. She was in tears because she wanted it so bad, but she would not take it if offered to her because she was told she could not and respected that. She politely talked to her dad and eventually got to have some ice cream, but she sometimes can truly respect what she has been told even if tempters stand right by. I hope she keeps that strength for good always!
- Caleb: What can I say, this kid loves the Green Bay Packers. I am not sure where the love affair began, but it is strong now. Last week the Packers game was not broadcast and he was devastated that he was not able to watch the game. This week it was a night game and he was able to watch the first hour of it before bedtime. On Monday morning the first thing he said to Grant was, "Did the Packers win last night?" I cannot even believe that he thought of that, or even cared. Oh, but he did. Football is a big deal to him and he is passionate about it. He is also passionate about his baby sister. He always wants to take care of her and sits by her side to help her stop crying. It is so sweet. He even tells me he wants to change her diapers, if only! His passions run deep, and I love it!
- Asher: I have not seen a kid much happier about a birthday present than him when he got his golf clubs last night. The kids has not put them down for more than about an hour since last night...whether he was awake or asleep. Yes, he slept with his club and ball. He loves golf like Caleb loves football. I still have not figured out if the love of sports is learned from Grant or if it is just in them. One more thing about my little Asher-basher. Our primary makes a cd of the songs for the program for that year for each family. I keep it in my car and try to play it for them so it helps them to learn the words. Yesterday I turned it on and Asher was singing I am a child of God. He actually knew a lot of the songs. When a verse would finish he would yell, "more, more, " until the next verse started. I was so proud of him, what a smart good kid!
- Miquelyn: She obviously is too small to really show us her personality, but I know it is there. With our kids I have definitely learned that they are born with their own little personalities. I am looking forward to discovering hers. She has been such a good baby so far, thank goodness. It has made this transition so much easier than I thought it would be. I do love the moments we get together when she cuddles up to me and falls asleep. I love the feeling of her close by. She is my little sweety and She has filled her place in our family perfectly!
Needless to say, a much better day!
Monday, September 22, 2008
I need to back up a little for this. In Kindergarten they use a color system. You start out as green and if you get in trouble your color is changed to yellow. If you still get in trouble it changes to red and your parent's get called. Kindergarten has been a very difficult transition for Jamison, but two weeks ago she seemed to be comfortable and doing fine. Last Monday I picked her up from school and she told me that she got in trouble for stealing. I had parent teacher conference that day and sure enough my little angel (devil) got caught stealing crayons and buttons. She talked to the teacher and apologized, but her color did not change. We had a long chat with her at home and she promised to be better. I also found out that she has been sucking her thumb almost all day at school (big no-no.) I told the teacher she definately could tell her to take it out! I was a little stressed at this point. The next day she came home and told me she got her color changed to yellow because she poked a boy in the eye. Once again another talk and she said she would be better. Then the next day came with another yellow. This time she spit in the classroom. I could not believe she did that, she always gets in trouble for spitting at home. At this point I am furious and at a loss. Anyone that knows Jamison knows that there are not barganing chips. Nothing matters to her enough to be a punishment. What do I do??? Well Jamison and I talked about it and we decided that she lost all her dolls, doll clothes, barbies, dress-up clothes and purses and when she got a green she could earn them back one at a time. On friday she earned back a doll, but lost it again by Saturday for poor behavior. What am I to do.
Today I asked her if she stayed green and she told mee yes. WELL...when I looked at her folder she was yellow, in trouble for the fourth time in one week. I still am not sure exactly what she did to get in trouble. She eventually told me that she got her color changed because she touched a boy on the leg when she was not supposed to. I need to talk to the teacher and find out what really happened. I am so frustrated I do not know what to do. I thought that I was doing a better job of teaching my kids...obviously not. I thought they knew how to behave better...another obviously not. I have no clue what is going on with our family, but I do know that I do not like it. I do not know if it is partially a lack of sleep or pure frustration, but after talking to Jamison and not being able to get a hold of Grant I almost lost it and broke into tears. I know there is not manual to parenting kids, but right now I could really use one because I feel like I am failing miserably!